Needy

I feel like I'm more needy than ever recently, and I'm covering up the boredom with doing nothing.



Someone,

take me home.

Revelation

I realise I'm mildly voyeuristic.

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I cant seem to think of anything to say, yet there is something I wanna say.


Keeps nagging at me.

Feeling

slightly lonesome..

The stairs

Today I watched a secondary school couple walking up the stairs of my block. Made me think of years before..

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Whispered words, light laughter.. saying please..

The half hour of my secret pastime.

My secret indulgence.

Still my secret.

Leaving the tissue on the floor, walking off giggling back home.


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I smiled to myself as I watched them, walking up the same path I took years before.

Waiting

Its worthless to keep on waiting, isnt it?

When you want something, you've got to reach out and get it, instead of sit there wishing that it'll come some day.

SO I should do smth abt my dreams, shudnt I?

But...
I'm lazy.




So its all back to square one.

Boring-nothing-ness

Class is so boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.





Life is boring.

I'm just a boring mess. :D

Of guys and other randomities.

Yea yea. I know my blog's dead and dying. ANYWAY rmb how in nov all my old OLD entries disappeared? Actually they are all hidden somewhere else :D but i cant say where. And like.. yea. :) I spent my lonesome and -nothing to fill my time- time reading my old entries, and I realise that hey! I'm actually quite entertaining. haha.

Anyway.. so thats that.

I'm pretty miserable now so many thats why I'm back to blogging. That and my friends are going ON and ON about the state of it. Considering I actually use my blog as an avenue to relieve stress and unhappiness, and it actually makes me THINK... I'm back! :D

Ok so.. for today's shit.

I realise I cant quite understand guys. Especially the one I call my boyfriend. All I usually only want when I have a boyfriend is really.. just a normal relationship. But I realise I cant seem to sustain one. Right now, life's shit. I wonder whats up with him. Is it that he likes another girl? Or he doesnt like me anymore? No matter, I feel like.. i've already given up. Even before even attempting to fight the good fight. Maybe I'm just too tired. I just wanna go back to before.. To when we first met.. as friends even, if I cant have his love.

Life's complexities always befuddle me. Maybe its all too complicated for me to handle.

fuck fuck fuckety fuck.