The first reason why I moved my old entries away was because I hated the fact that my blog affected other people. That the stuff I blogged about was read and interpreted by different people in different ways.
To me, the saddest thing about it is that I've always blogged because to me my blog is MY space, and I dont wanna blog thinking about WHO is gonna read and WHO is gonna feel WHAT about what I write. I dont wanna care, because in the end, I hate blogging commercially, putting in what people want to see and in the end not writing down what people dont wanna see.
Its MY blog. I've never given ANYONE shit about what they blog about, except when they misunderstand something and I want to clarify.
But its alright, I'm glad with this new routine of blogging and its fine by me. Up til today, when I decided to blog about this jonathan issue. Which is more or less because I dont really think there is a need for censorship.
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To you, Jonathan Lok. Lets disseminate what you said. In your blog.
1) "You think i cause this mess and leave isit "'
Please note: NO one said YOU caused it. We said that there was a mess. And it is a fact you left. Which in the end isnt really a big deal anyway.
2) let me tell you this if not for my idea we would have failed by now if not for my last min effort we wont even get 69/100 .Please note: We wudnt have failed. This group, thrives on last minute work. IDEAs presentation isnt rocket science. Daryl completed IEB reports less than 8 hrs before it was due. And he didnt do badly. And FYI, when u asked me to do the concept fan and some of the pages, i did them. You cant blame me when u werent satisfied and wanted to change the concept fan with it ending up being ur work. Even if in the last project you didnt want to do anything we wud have come up with something. I'm sorry that you dont know us well enough despite us being in the same class for so long. Have any of the rest of our grp members' grps gone near failure? I dont think so.
3) So anything gone wrong just blame me right anything good happen is all your effort i played no part right ?Please note: Do not put words into our mouths. Did we EVER say smth like this? In the end, the issue here is the fact that we arent as lousy or as sucky as you put us down to be.
4) I ask anything to say you say nothing yet in your blog i see many things .Please note: I'm sorry I dont see a need to report my every feeling to you. My blog, like I said, is my personal space. So is yours. And, one word of advice,
It's so simple to be wise. Just think of something stupid to say and then don't say it. -someone
This is my philosophy.
5)If i am ugly someone else looks worse .
Please note: I have never told u that I thought you were ugly, and I have never EVER said I was better looking than you. So DONT use this as a void filler.
6)I am not any genius so isnt isnt anyone .Please note: Ok I admit, this is on a totally unrelated topic. But I put it there basically because I wont forget the day you told me you were a genius and I snorted.
7)I have never asked to be wanted u moron so if you all want or dont want me is still the same .Please note: Ahh. This is the one that is the most impt of all the crap you wrote. I'm SOOO very sorry, but this is just personal opinion, based on a recent revelation of truths that have stunned and yet at the same time delighted me. Maybe you'll never find out, but its good enough that a gd number of people know. I'm sorry, still.
8)Go ahead do a better job than me i dont give a dam about it .Please note: Thanks. Back at cha!
Its always the vocal people who take all the slag. Just because people dont say anything doesnt mean that they dont think it. You'd be surprised at what people really truly think. I'm glad I'm the kind who cant give a shit if people hate me or not, unless they were people I cared about. I did look at you as my friend, Jonathan, which is why I never expected you to do or think about doing what you did.
We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world. - Helen Keller
Ok so thats that. I'm not going to talk about this issue or you or anything to do with this anymore. I dont give a flying fuck about replying, never wanted to reply your post except that after thinking for a while I feel its better for me to say my piece instead of leaving it at that. You can reply with some heedless and rash answer, but I just wanna say that enough is enough. Dont pull yourself and everyone even lower.
Human to human, let me tell you this:
Why do we always call you a kid? It isnt always just because you're short or anything. Oh and btw, Daryl and I are pretty sorry for being quite mean to you and suaning you. It was actually uncalled for and pretty childish of us as well, to poke fun at your expense for our own entertainment. In the end, we arent perfect. I know I'm fat and ugly, he knows he.. erm. hates to study? We just see above it all, and get over the shit that life throws us. I dont really wanna talk about your character flaws, because we arent close enough.
So anyway, you can reply to this, but I wanna say that I'm nt gonna mention this issue any more. Its over in my eyes. Spending more time on it is just wasting blog space.
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Ok enough of that.
I know I'm not perfect, and I always try to improve. I'm caustic and I always unknowingly make acrid and sarcastic remarks. I always end up regretting saying stuff afterwards. I tend to look down on people at times, and I know its bad, bearing in mind my own flaws.
I admit to my character flaws, there are so many more. The most important thing is that I'm aware of them.